My head is fucking killing me again and I missed church.. again

My head is fucking killing me again and I missed church.. again
Time for shower

Smoking in the shower does hit different. Wasn't that great tho cuz I only did it once

time to shave off the aryan germanic bush too

Try smoking in the bathtub
That’s another level of calm you experience there
No fuck you i don’t have sex why should I shave down there and it itches if I do it everyday
What’s your next advice? Bleaching my butthole?

Weight loss is going alright too lost 2kg this week but my body will prob adapt soon so I either need more exercise or less food (I’m already struggling to get my daily protein in my schedule so I think I go with more exercise)

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I appreciate when I get to work a normal job, will never do onlyfans to see my tits one must go out multiple times with me to get shitfaced drunk first

The cigarette ends up getting too humid and doesn't feel the same.
Even with vaping, I switch to vape few years ago and I something vape in the tub but usually I just wait til out of the tub cuz the humidity makes the vape hit weird

Now an outdoor hottub would probably be the best for smoking a cigarette while being in water
Next time I'm in one in gonna give it a shot, thx for the idea

Don’t vape bro it seriously fucks up your lungs 40 times worser then cigarettes

Also np, smoking a cig in an outdoor hot pool also sounds very nice

fucks up your lungs 40 times worser then cigarettes

How so? When I made the switch I felt I had more lung capacity

that's extremely unfortunate, yet another potential star chooses obscurity over fame and prosperity

Yea that’s short time
I used to change from smoking to vaping for 6 months and it ruined my lung capacity, someone I used to know did the same and he even got bronchitis from it
Beside you are tempted to smoke more often

Hey if I lost all hope and dreams at life and thought nothing would be worth trying anymore here, even then I wouldn’t do onlyfans, I’d jump onto a big bird and fly away from here

You are the biggest whore I have ever met. No front, but it’s the truth.

Sending kisses and best regards from upper Austria

Thanks, I have aids now

I dunno who you are and I don’t wanna make assumptions
I don’t have aids tho

Oh, I'm just the guy you forgot about while you were prostituting yourself. You only turn down onlyfans because you want the real thing. Disgusting

Fair enough
I could apologize myself 500 times and yet it would still not be enough

You keep apologizing, only to flirt with the next guy the next day. Your apologies are worth nothing, and if you had any brain power, you'd realize that.
And now excuse me, I have to carry around a thousand people

I mean we separated ways didn’t we
For what happened in the past I’m genuinely sorry but I don’t see any further need to prove that
Have a good day and stay save

I don’t talk about what you did the last days, but in our relationship. You were one of the worst human beings I have ever met. I have never heard anything close to the things you did. I hope you will feel bad for the stuff you have done

Yea you where no pony ride either
It just didn’t work out, we have different expectations of life and you wouldn’t let me get trough
You messed up a lot so did. I, bit expectations didn’t get meet
That’s how life is

Yeah, and I’m glad I finally did it, good you feel the same as well

It’s a bit of a relief indeed
Thought I miss some parts but it can’t be helped

reimu is right btw

You are too obsessed greek dog

my wife chino

Sorry she’s already my sweet daughter

It’s right for me to feel bad to some extent but I don’t have to feel like they don’t have agency
They do, they just don’t like things that make them feel weak, and they don’t know what strong is.
It’s a problem and one they can only learn trough pain

I’m a bit exhausted of it but the world keeps spinning neitherless

Very few of my kind left that holds onto hope because they simply can’t afford otherwise without major consequences

I believe and part of believing is believing till the end
You get no reward for it, you simply believe because you must

I have just wanted to be treated like a human, you never did anything.
I am less alone without you, I love you, how could you treat me that wrongly. I will be hurt, but I will prevail. I don’t even believe you can feel the same as me, I don’t believe you felt the same about the meaning of this relationship. I hope, i can find someone who truly loves and understands me.

You and me we are not the same.
I first just wanted to have a good time and then I slowly wanted to help you, but failed I even failed to help myself

unlike you I don’t have any agency.
I don’t have the resources to work on an impossible task for years but I did still love you

Aha, how did you want to help me?
Fremdgehen war keine Hilfe.
We both know the real reason what you wanted at the start.
I know that I was never really important to you, it’s very hurtful
I don’t need a copy of myself, but someone with the same goals.
Stable environment, house and family. My trainers wife is Krankenschwester , they have no problem owning a house. You have no agency, you are like a child, thinking about today, but never about tomorrow. That’s why you betrayed me

I wanted to get you away from weed and actually build something up with you
Yet you yourself closed that door, while expecting from me that I throw my dreams away just so you can get exactly what you want.
All while that I was suffering alone having to listen to the same stuff everyday I really wanted to

Yet you have the audiacy to say I never cared
Do you even listen to yourself

Well I suppose I will always be the bad guy in your peoples eyes

Lol, sure. You never left an thought for me. You have betrayed me so often, and you didn’t listen to the stuff I complained about, no you complained about me complaining. Never had the thought that many emotions are behind this complaints. You have treated me very badly. You know why I don’t wanted that you go there, I feel not secure and I have my reasons.
You make me very sad. I won’t talk with you again.
With the weed you are right. And without you, I can leave my apartment, but I have to get over this somehow.

I tried talking with you about this stuff but it was an impossible chore
I know anything I did try didn’t matter to you in the end wich is a bit upsetting but it is what it is

I’m sorry but I can’t get your insecurities doubts and disinterest get in the way

You can blame anything and everything on me if it makes you feel a bit better though
Anyhow good luck to you I hold no grudge

It hurts me so much more that you won’t accept that you are the reason I am so hurt. Well, I will just do as always. Doing nothing in my cute empire

Ich könnt mich einfach vergraben, ich hasse das alles und ich hoffe die Erlösung kommt.

I do know you are hurt because of me
I apologize
Yet you use it as an excuse, again

I would have thought you would know better at this point

Werd endlich erwachsen
Das Leben isr nicht nur schwarz und weiß

hi

im so glad ur not dead ^-^

Im Not glad that you are not dead though

Übrigens mir geht es gerade auch scheiße wenn du her kommst und mir sowas schreibst
Ich weiß net was du damit bezwecken wolltest aber wenn es war meinen Abend auch zu ruinieren dann hast du es geschafft