Took 3.5mg bromazolam and then realized I forgot my headphones so I won't be able to listen to the zoomerpilled russian hyperpop while drowsy, my day is ruined
Took 3...
I'M GONNA FUCKING MURDER YOU. I HOPE THOSE DRUGS MELT YOUR BRAIN TO THE POINT WHERE U JUST FALL DOWN THE STAIRS, BREAK UR NECK AND DIE IN A PAINFUL SLOW WAY
what did I even do to you chigga calm down chigga
Kill yourself you worthless vermin.
Common adverse effects of benzodiazepines are somnolence, impaired balance, ataxia, loss of coordination, impaired thinking and self-assessment capability, muscle weakness, confusion, slurred speech, blurred vision, amnesia, dizziness, drowsiness, lethargy, fatigue and palpitations. At high doses, they may induce delirium, auditory and visual hallucinations, seizures, deep sleep and coma.[5][11]
Keep taking them. Keep drugging yourself up. Please update everyone when you kill yourself. I want to laugh at you killing yourself.
Don’t take drugs when bored at work
Just install a gatcha game at this point and play that
Are you mad that I'm more functional and better in every way than you? I will die in a sensational "accident" (in case I die at hall (there's a high chance)) while you will hang yourself by the age of 60 from loneliness
Yeah because functional people take a high dose of bromazolam.
Nothing sensational about dying in an accident. People will be watching your retarded death in liveleak. Truly sensational
I don't do drugs as copium for being miserable, it's just passing time for times of low motivation
I don't do drugs as copium for being miserable
Kek. Why the high dose then? Why pushing yourself to die?
You worthless vermin you will die and I will laugh at your death.
Cook up some more drugs I wanna watch you get more fucked up.
My tolerance is high that's literally it, but without music it's kind whack... Kind of wasted this one
My tolerance is high
Lol. Kek. Lmao.
Wasted this one
Take another one
What are you so mad about niggy stop trying to be annoying or something
I just love how pathetic you are and how you are slowly killing yourself. I hope you have a horrible overdose one day. Well it's likely to happen anyway. Ahaha I just wish I could see it myself I wanna watch you die
Go play your guitar to calm down, the spergout is real and you probably haven't even slept. Also you should check the life expectancy for autists if you wanna have something to laugh at. In my 3 years of heavy chem I haven't managed to pour boiling water over my arm... I wonder if I'll ever reach your level...
The low life expectancy of autists stem from low functioning autists. They are prone to seizures and dying that way.
I don't sit around pumping drugs into my body cuz of "low motivation". Sorry if I caused you to feel so shit that you started posting edgy anime pics.
Maybe it's time for you to kill yourself for real this time. I'm sure you have tried a few times
mew mew mew mew
When LARPing as le degen druggie you should probably use serious substances instead of this angsty zoomer-tier garbage. Not that I recommend it; I know that you romanticize it now, but you'll regret it in a few years.
What exactly?
Ahahahha
See . The sporadic nature of actual hard drugs - baby doses, I'm sure - and the obsession with both tracking and using it as a fashion statement reveals us everything: you are an experimenting young adult. Right now you romanticize the druggie aesthetic that gets shared online while being oblivious to what actual addiction feels like. Once you're done experimenting and find actual hard drugs that you truly like - something you want to take daily - you'll probably quickly realize how much this lifestyle actually sucks.
I mean this. Your act is incredibly transparent to anyone older than you. Just give up now. You're not the first woe-is-me teenager/early twenties fag that has made this mistake.
I am actually working on a 4-methylaminorex synth, that's shit gonna be balling as fuck because there's little cross tolerance between meth. The alibaba precursors are just gonna take ages to arrive
Who the fuck said I wanna get addicted, at first I thought it was meth for me but the 60mg daily limit I've set myself only lasted a few weeks until became dull and I don't wanna end up as some retarded junkie. The chemistry behind it isn't even interesting either I'm more interested in making a deliriant that doesn't fuck your cardiovascular system. Even when taking meth I always took a shitton of supplements to reduced the impact of the oxidative stress on my brain and protect michobrial function by taking mitoq. I also experimented with some other parkinsons and dementia meds. I don't really think you get what I'm trying to achieve
Gonna watch your life spiral out of control in slow motion through your bant blog posts
It's going to be kino I can assure you that
Who the fuck said I wanna get addicted
Nobody wants to get addicted, nor do they plan on it. That's the problem.
But harm reduction
You are not the first. Most people start out that way. Limits and other measures to stay healthy like proper sleep, tolerance breaks, using less harmful ROA's, and so on.
I don't really think you get what I'm trying to achieve
What you say and what you're actually doing are different. You ARE using it as a fashion statement. You ARE constantly making posts about doing le drugs. You do this because you either like the aesthetic or because it makes you feel pitiful - both are the same in practice.
At some point the experimentation WILL get boring. You WILL stop taking most of the substances you're trying now because you realize they're boring after a few times. At that point you will not quit substance use, but stick to the few remaining ones that you actually enjoy. One bad period in your life is all you're going to need to ignore those limits you set and at that point it will develop into actual addiction. Physical and mental addiction are not fun and everyone is susceptible to it. It IS a slippery slope and many younger people like you HAVE gone through this exact same experience despite "totally having it under control".
Bro you are just a chem student. You are suffering the dunner kruger effect, but it's even worse since your brain is getting fucked more and more as you do. I'm lmafoing as you complete fuck yourself up
Yes and yes
Although the one substance that I really liked was meth but since it stopped hitting the same I barely take it anymore. Considering both my biological parenterinos where massive junkies and my father still is I was surprised I still didn't really get hooked to anything. I guess I just have a daily routine that still keeps me in the loop and I always was quite mentally stable to begin with, well, we'll see how it develops
I'm not even a chem student, I'm an amateur chemist. It's my passion and hobby and I love to do it. Cognitive decline through drugs comes in many forms but the actual thing that makes you retarded is oxidative stress and I'm very aware about. Well you'll see how it goes
my biological parenterinos where massive junkies and my father still is
I'm an amateur chemist
Well you'll see how it goes
Ahahhahaha. You are just riddled with red flags waiting to explode into a humiliating ending.
I guess I just have a daily routine that still keeps me in the loop and I always was quite mentally stable to begin with,
This is what everyone thinks. This is what I thought. I could binge most substances for a week or two and then just quit, either because they got boring or because I thought it'd be better to not use more. That went fine for a few years, but then all other classes of substances get boring and you're left only being able to use the one or two things you actually kind of like (but not even that much) on those dull days. One bad month where you use it daily and you're trapped due to physical dependence - the mental part is only there partially. Over those first few years I had no issue with pharma opiates, but when circumstances aligned I went from snorting heroin to daily IV in the span of a few months. I'm not retarded. I generally have good restraint and I managed to taper and "quit" heroin relatively easy many times over the years, but once the damage is done it's done and you can't easily shake it anymore at that point. It will always be there in the back of your mind.
I know you won't listen and you'll just write me off as someone who's not "totally in control" like you since I used to do the same, but experimentation with hard drugs is only going to lead to regret unless you manage to quit it early. I've experienced it and I've seen many other people experience it. It's not cool even though wallowing in self-pity is nice and the idealized aesthetic is romantic.
a deliriant that doesn't fuck your cardiovascular system
thats trihexyphenidyl and dicycloverine
You know, I really thought you where quite sharp, maybe it's the spergout, but now you're not really giving that vibe anymore
I'm talking about anticholinergics
Are you the heroin fag?
Probably not. I don't post here often.
Doesn't matter if you think I'm retarded it doesn't change reality. You are on copemode and are just giving out excuses. The "harm reduction" thing and the "I know what I am doing" is so dumb considering earlier you admitted to me you have a high chance to die in an accident. Probably implying drug abuse.
Doesn't matter though I don't see any reason for why you would stop. Citing "low motivation" you are unlikely to ever stop anyway you have nothing better to do
Drug overdoses would be pretty lame, I was talking about explosives that are way better than any drug anyway
Well all I can say but that you probably aslo already know is that there's a surprisingly large difference in how people reqct to drugs, I've seen people who literally couldn't stop redosing meth until there's nothing left and I didn't even know that people like that exist, just thought it's the bad stigma. I'm not going to pretend to be invincible to addiction but I for sure am very self reflected and have many things more important to me than drugs
"I always was quite mentally stable to begin with"
"I was talking about explosives that are way better than any drug anyway"
You are a mess.
I have to fuckin sedate myself at work with antipsychotics and still get panic attacks over stocking fucking shelves.
I've seen people who literally couldn't stop redosing meth until there's nothing left and I didn't even know that people like that exist, just thought it's the bad stigma. I'm not going to pretend to be invincible to addiction but I for sure am very self reflected and have many things more important to me than drugs
You just don't get it, but that's to be expected. Try and remember my posts in a few years. You will not find healthy and responsible long term users of destructive hard drugs.
You don’t have done drugs with anyone else in real life and you see my bad habits that I still have from way back when I did cocain
Be careful boy, some painful lessons can be avoided
benzos just make interacting with the low IQ mechanics and engineer boomers I'm surrounded with more bearable and actually funny, also music just goes harder
Oh my gatt he has interests!!! What a mess!!!!!!
I'm about one year in, what's to be expected?
I'm not going to take unpredictable drugs with people who I barely know sorry I didn't say any names either
No no I meant the meth
This is clearly taking a tol on your body and mind even if you don’t notice it that much
There are other fun activities to do stick with your chemistry hobby… but you already know that :p
See
Yeah I'm doing other stuff constantly, it comes and goes in phases
The whole aim is finding something I really like, when I first started I basically already gave up on it all because of my family history but I guess my expectations of le drugs where just too high
yeah buddy thats what im talking about too maybe try looking up the titles at least next time you braindead junkie
Yeah I'm doing other stuff constantly, it comes and goes in phases
Like what
And this is a risk in itself. Because you don't even like it that much it will be easier to ignore your own limits in a time where you're feeling bad, since you'll "quit any moment anyways". It's why opiates are so deceptive to so many people; they're much milder than rumors suggest, so people think they can just do them for a while. Personally I don't think heroin is that good. The downsides heavily outweigh the upsides and I am aware that any relapse will have me feeling like shit by week two. Does that mean that I have no urge to use it anymore? Not at all. Being sober also sucks and addiction is funny that way. No other substance ever did this to me and at this point I have no desire to use anything else anymore despite having a varied intake like you before.
You are also making another obvious mistake - either consciously or subconsciously - by saying that you keep your usage under control. You don't. Just because you switch it up every day does not mean that you're not addicted. You are reliant on using substances and this will be a problem in a year or two when you have to pick between being sober or using the one or two drugs that you kinda like. Your talk about responsible use is mostly a cope, and it doesn't suggest to me that you're as self-aware as you say that you are.
this shit is basically otc here. check thevespiary.org
I'm working on an FPV interceptor drone atm, it uses an OV2640 camera module and 2 ESP32's running a blob detection algorithm with dynamic scaling. I kinda suck at C++ so I'm having troubles getting it to work but I think the idea of using 4x5w near infrared LEDs as emmitors with 2 time 30 and 2 time 15 degrees beam angle is a pretty good idea when combined with a 850nm lens on the camera.
Yeah drugs suxk and are dangerous I don't really know what you're trying to communicate here
I'm using a similar procedure the thing with the one step cyclisation is you get a racemic mixture of the two isomers
racemic mixture of the two isomers
you dont