anyways it's a beautiful day, gonna go get my sunshine and make a smoothie. the bananas are really green though, that's gonna make things less enjoyable.
sending a message to my crush: your convictions and ideology are part of what make you special, i know they are important to you. but they're not going to look you in the eyes and smile, comfort you when your sad, hold you at night. only a person can do that. if your beliefs are what's keeping you from seeking that out, i feel very bad for you. i want only to make you happy. i've thought a lot about why you are the way you are, and i'd really like to talk about it when you're ready, but take it from someone who knows, politics are cheap, they change, and ultimately you're not on a team or part of a tribe, you are all by yourself, and you need to do what's best for you, not what makes others happy or keeps you consistent with some statement you made or idea you thought was good. you act strong but i know you don't have a lot in this world to really comfort you, and you're leaning on a lot of stuff that you don't want to see crumble, but there's nothing more solid to lean on than someone that genuinely cares for you.