I was involved in a major car accident three days ago

Well fuck, I'm sorry this has happened to you.

Do something to be remembered by before you go. Heros never die.

BANNABLE FAGGOTS AMIRITE?

Report this spamming fucking nigger piece of shit every time you encounter him.

You should have fled the scene, like a good mexican.
Do you really believe in the judicial system?
well, enjoy your years in jail

The fucking pain to stop, they put me on vicodin for the wreck but that was short term, only pain relief I've had in 7 months they won't give it to me normally due to my "age" even though I'm a rare case study.
I hate medicine like you wouldn't believe, and people, and niggers and being alive quite frankly, the car wreck sped up my cancer I can feel it attacking my throat in ways I can barely describe to typical humans.

Have you tried making a pact with bezelbub?

He pulled out into me running a stop sign on a motorcycle while I was driving on a main road.
The dumb faggot survived somehow though I'd be shocked if he isn't a vegetable.
100% no fault on my end.

Sorry Anon Babble bro. It was fun shit posting with you though. Try to make the best of it I guess

See you on the other side anon

I know it's a long shot, but try ktatom. I mean 2 weeks op, fuck man fentynal is everywhere around here.

I'm gonna take my guns into the afterlife and shoot the first person I see.

Assuming this isn't a LARP, please get off this website. Spend some time with your family. Tell them how much you love them. Say your last goodbyes to your friends. Write a will. Give a little of what you have to the needy. Make these last few days of your life count for something

My wife had hodgkins lymphoma twice. What kind do you have? She had a stem cell transplant and has been in remission for over 3 year now.

Na kratom makes my lymph nodes in my neck feel even worse, and there's a damn good chance I'd get crystal meth instead of painkillers which would just wreck my system even more.
I'm just waiting for the heart attack it keeps coming up my resting BP is 170

this

I feel like we turned the two more weeks thing into a curse. Could be worse, though op.You could be the woman in pic rel.

Thoughts on afterlife?

Likely mantle cell the main tumor is behind my jugular vein and no surgeon in town is willing to do the operation, now my lungs have changed 5x in 2 months and I've had 4-5 episodes of not being able to take in oxygen anymore, the top part of my lungs have exploded

Look up doctor makis ivermectin fendbendazole faggot

Sorry to hear that anon. Cancer is awful. Could you try immunotherapy or clinical trials? Have they told you there is nothing else they can do?

Or go out and AIM for a new high score.

I lost a friend that I grew up with to liver cancer. Three months and he was gone. Hopefully there's something better after this and you're getting out early. I don't know for sure but that's what I'd like to believe.

Best of luck anon. Hope you make it.

I've had 3 years to consider it and spirituality.
Unironically seen the ophanim described in Ezekiel twice during near death episodes.

That being said I've found humans to be completely undeserving of any sort of grace.

loled

also when my wife got diagnosed she had a collapsed lung and they removed 3L of fluid out of her pleural cavity. She had no idea and was running 5 miles every couple of days. You probably have more time than you think even if you are terminal. I've learned to try and let go of bitterness. I don't know how helpful advice is to a dying man but I've felt a lot of relief in my own life once I just let go of everything I hated. I can't change the world. I can only hold onto Jesus and hope.

It's spread, not only are my lungs irrepreably damaged my left kidney is no longer processing anything, my right leg is twice the size of my left, it feels like someones taking 20-40 knives and ramming them under my throat and neck nonstop, it's way too late for anything.
No operation = no cure, no cure = metastasized aggressive cancer in a younger patient.
Could likely due multiple doctors but again no time left.

travel well frond. join the billions

Wanna play some Diablo 2?

I had some chances, people who had the opprotunity to help me decided it wasn't in their best interest.
It's way too late my lungs have ILD and COPD completely destroyed the top part of the lungs, they won't do anything to you organ wise if the cancer itself isn't treated it's like changing the oil when you've already thrown a rod.

heh right now I'm playing try not to go shoot at everyone who speaks louder than a whisper.
I don't enjoy anything out of life, besides maybe shitposting here every so often but those days are gone, this wreck finished me off, major collisions to cancer patients typically dislodges cancerous cells into other organs, which is why I've declined so badly afterward, I was already insanely fragile in terms of what might set off a total episode of cytokine storming.
Thank you for the offer though it's sweet.
As for letting go of bitterness, I have so many times over until this wreck which just reminded me a life time of forgiveness only led to me being completely abandoned at the worst time of my life.

why is Anon Babble moderation protecting and aiding a groomer pedophile?
archive.4plebs.org/pol/thread/503358971/

Jewtube has a few good vidya about "NDE" near death experience. Fascinating to say the least. Maybe even comforting to someone circling the drain,, no offense.

I hope you have some decent opiates at least.

Here's your OP image without the odd filter. It's the least I can do.

reminded me a life time of forgiveness only led to me being completely abandoned at the worst time of my life.

anon your bumming out bro. If it makes you feel any better, if my kill dozer was ready I would so let you take it for a spin. But I've been putting that shit off past couple months though. I really need to finish it desu

Thanks kike, you're the least flaming homosexual in europe.

Well damn OP this is it huh? I don't think this will make you feel better but we all get there one day. Do me a favor and face it with a sense of adventure.

Sadly its all allucinations, when your brain doesn't have oxigen for 7+ minutes and gets damaged beyond repair that's when youru conciousness ceases to exist and you're clinically brain dead. There is no coming back from that.

A lot of us are abandoned and alone here. We're all on the same ride. You're getting off now. Probably gonna take off the VR goggles and say "wtf". At least the pain will be gone. That should be nice.

For the OP.

The world will end in 2028.

It's a shot of truth, don't forgive, those same people you forgive will take advantage of your kindness and not give you the proper respect you deserve.

Treat people like the shit they are, most people and I mean like 99.9% of them aren't worth scraping off your shoes.
This is coming from a man who's seen fucking "angels" and have preached forgiveness for years and years.
Fuck the world it's full of shit and deserves gods wrath.

You have a girl or ever have a girl? Any family?

digits say this is the way

This world ended in the 90s be realistic, it's on life support at this rate.

Well for what it's worth we're here to read what you have to say.

how old are you?

Praying you can have peace anon, this world hasn’t treated me well either, if you could throw me a bone when you pass I would be thankful, let me know the next bitcoin, it’s cool if not I’ll be shitposting with you up there soon

Muh nigga

I'm on tha S&W retirement plan

That being said I've found humans to be completely undeserving of any sort of grace.

Based. If what is going on is true OP I'm sorry brother. If there is indeed an afterlife I hope you will find peace

Forgiveness should only happen with repentence. Something a lot of people don't understand if the foundation they're leaning on is biblical. Luke 17:3 -- if they repent, forgive them. Forgiveness is a mending of a relationship. A relationship can't be mended if on side of it will just fuck you over again and doesn't really care. Psalm 5:5 God hates all workers of iniquity. Modern western christian teaching is bullshit. It's ok to hate the hatable. Those that deserve the hate. And only forgive those who repent.. who go the other direction. That the idea of fucking you over again disgusts them so much they want to puke. That's when forgiveness should happen. And only then.

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Not trying to sound too bitter, but I've sort of said what I had to say in this life, the last three years was my spiritual window which was slammed shut by reckless drivers and reckless doctors.
I've seen plenty, including the afterlife, and multiple out of body experiences, people don't really give a shit anyway if it's not in some easy to digest short order form relay of information anyway these days.

If you meet the maker please put in a good word for the anons on this site

Hey, no problem, goy.
Anyway, can you still eat normal food? If so, what would you like your last meal to be?

I maybe have Lymphomas too (multiple swollen lymphnodes in different Regions)
How did it start with your Lymphomas?
What are the Signs of it early and what to look out for?
P.s. i hope you have a peaceful end and all the blessings in whatever comes afterwards

Sorry anon. No jokes this time, I hope you have an easy go of it all.

I can't wave a magic wand and make it all better but I can at least listen and remember so that you are not quite alone.

"God please forgive Anon for saying nigger 5,789,347 times, gas the jews, HH, Hitler was right, TND and TKD."

"Sure."

I imagine what comes after this is as easy to explain is it is for us to explain the 11th dimension. Maybe there's some surface level stuff that's relatable, but I doubt we have any real comprehension. There's definitely something to it tho. Fuck, we can change outcomes of quantum events by just measuring them. Nothing is as it seems.

Weight loss, irritability, odd sweating at atypical times.
Then eventually the cancer gets big enough it starts pushing on your nerves and you'll know exactly where it's at.

Try antibiotics first before assuming it's lymphoma, I lost nearly 120lbs before noticing things were off.

go to asia and impregnate some chink bitches, or africa

lymphoma

either tattoo or goyslob food, weed/vape could be an option too

if you see my dad and my uncles on the other side, tell them I said STOP FUCKING OFF and have a beer with them.

If this is real please get right with God in the little time you have left. This moment is the most important part of your whole life. Give your heart To Jesus He loves you And will never give up on you and is with you even now. Even if you had only a day You could still Get right with God even the theif on the cross was mocking Christ up until the end when he was forgiven because he repented and trusted in Jesus and gave him his heart. It's never to late Please just pray and Give Him your heart. God loves you more then you can ever imagine or understand please Use this time to come back to Him.

it too black today oh LORD what have we done

Post insurance type and the state u live in and I will help u. Post a pic of latest PET scan or I will not help you.

Die soon op. Hells hot faggot.

woman

Uh anon...

I'm infertile, broke and lymphoma is causing blood clots "sticky blood" meaning if I flew I'd likely have a pulmonary embolism.

I don't have pictures, fairly sure you gotta request those by film, I'm in missouri and on medicaid.
Wasn't asking for help at this rate money isn't going to fix my life.
And if you're implying you can fix me, don't.

Damn I've never heard of this Jesus fella before, care to enlighten me

spoke earlier of Ezekiel.

I could get you sent to the extended care network to UPenn if you so desire.

I've found the hardest part with these situations is often that there's nothing to really say or do. Life just hands you a load of bullshit and then rips you to shreds. We all come to the same end. Some just sooner than others. The only question that unfortunately goes unsolved is what to make of your own suffering.. Are you a Christian? I've been to a few funerals over the past couple of years and it's really made me think about my own mortality. I personally have come to the conclusion that our suffering only makes sense in the context of Christ's sacrifice and that often we can't see the larger plan at work or understand it so the suffering feels personal and senseless.

Little story: I live in Florida and we have lizards that frequently get stuck in the house. I usually try and catch them with a cup and a sheet of paper and let them outside. I'm just trying to help them but they run and sometimes I screw up and smash their tail off by accident or they run under the dryer or fridge where I later find them petrified after dying from starvation. I'm just trying to help them but to them it's cruel suffering/they feel like prey. I think our suffering is something like that. You many not realize it but even you being here telling your story might make someone consider their own life and change it completely. When my wife was diagnosed her grandmother died a few years later. She had been indifferent to religion her whole life. Only my wife getting sick made her reconsider that. Shortly before she died she began to pray and open her self up to God. People might say I'm deluding myself and this is the justification I give myself as comfort to make sense of a world full of senseless suffering but I've seen too many things play out this way in my own life to ignore it.

Godbless anon.

I have another follow up PET-CT in July with my hematologist but I don't think I'll even get remotely close to that appointment, metabolic activity in the bilateral cervical lymph nodes IIRC done in 2024 around july.
Hematolgist pushed me over to other specialists because of the severe complications in my case and every doctor refused to believe it was a rare lymphoma and "had to be autoimmune"
But they were incorrect, too little too late it moved to my lungs now.

Login MyChart and post the radiologist's summary.

Anon Babble moderation is protecting a grooming operation and are thus liable.

Actually my doctors just literally got absorbed into the Mayo clinic but again too fucking late, the only chance I had was dashed with that reckless driver, not only destroyed my vehicle which was the only way I could get to appointments it absolutely just kicked everything into overdrive.
Typically I could handle the pain now even pumping myself with steroids and vicodin and nerve medicine, and the pains so intense I keep wanting to run outside and shoot myself.

odd sweating at atypical times.

Wait... i start to sweat very very easily for 2-3 Years now and in the Summer i am like a Fountain... even if its -degrees outside i start to sweat if i go for groceries...
Also had problems with my Blood pressure 2 Years ago with it going to 190 after going grocery shopping in the Summer...
In Terms of weight loss its tricky - i am skinny af for my whole life and only gain weight when i really put all my strength into it but seem to lose it rather fast...
Swollen lymphnodes in groin, behind the head, neck and under the ear...

t.following you soon brother kek

Swollen lymphnodes in groin, behind the head, neck and under the ear..

You should definitely go see a doctor

Why can't they give you morphine or something wtf

Can they get you into hospice or palliative care?

I have bad teeth and inflamed af gums which i hoped are the reason for it (systematic infection) since i have them for around 8 years
I am currently working on getting this fixed...

Nah, you dont just aim for a high scorez you go after valuable scalps, ceos and owners, politicians, thats memorable and doesnt tarnish your memory

This also happened to me. Pretty sure it's covid/vaccine related. The heavy sweating from minor exertion started right after the vaccine.

vaxxed?

Took a second this is May 24, and was on high dose prednisone when they took it, which was reducing the metabolic activity, since then my lungs have degraded and changed 5x, they were "watching and waiting" as I washed out of prednisone but ended up having so many emergency room visits I couldn't stay off it or would basically start stroking out after being off prednisone for long periods.

had to edit out doctor names

Cancer is not a real thing. All diseases are mental. You should take ayahuasca.

retty sure it's covid/vaccine related. The heavy sweating from minor exertion started right after the vaccine.

Fuck man... they forced me to take this shit (only 1 of the 2 initial doses) to visit my grandma before her heart op...
She is my last relative i have contact with (others cut off contact when i was like 10)

See

Which vaccine was it? I was Moderna.

This seems like an okay report given your situation. How do you know your lungs have been impacted? Do you have imaging for that?

You gotta jump start your immune system with bacteria exposure.
Go dig a hole. Get all dirty.
You've been too isolated. Literally touching the grass more could save your life.

Biontech but in their defense (not really tho) i lived a pretty isolated lifestyle meaning sitting at home for 99% of the time so my hopes are that i just have little to muscle mass which is why i am sweating so fast...

Sorry, but your story isn't adding up. You would have already been sent to the top specialist irrespective of your insurance, especially considering your proximity to mayo. Either your lying or have given up. I hope you the best. The offer still stands. I fucking hate the health insurance industry and have been fighting these people for over 20 years. I have personally gotten people sent out of their primary network and cost insurers millions, but it'll never make up for the one I lost.
Pain sucks. If you're really dying, they give you whatever you want, so again something isn't adding up.

So, again. Login to MyChart and post the radiologist report from your last scans.

They won't make a proper diagnostic of the exact cancer until they remove it from my neck, which they won't do.
Hence why I'm just dying they refused to operate and put me in watch and wait when I should have been getting chemo a year back.
So no by doing that they admit fault and open themselves up, instead they played tennis.

fuck man that sucks.
but your vascular system is just weak. Probably not fatal. Maybe when you're an old man. I'd highly recommend not taking the next one they roll out for the next thing.

Anon, please get right with God. Jesus Christ is your only hope.
Before you go to sleep tonight, watch this entire playlist:

youtube.com/playlist?list=PLB0D90D93E677C827

Jesus Christ loves you so much man and remember, with God all things are possible.
Pray to Him.

I think it's actually related to the nervous system but that comes with the disclaimer that I am not a doctor and am only going off my own experience and research.

I've found humans to be completely undeserving of any sort of grace.

That's the point of grace, Anon.
It's given, neither you nor anybody else deserves it.
Go in peace my nigger, if you make it to the beautific vision, try and join in some shitposty prayers.

What a fucking pile of shit you've gotten, anon.

Mayo literally just moved here 2 weeks ago, I've been bounced between specialists for six years ans resident GP's.
Only finally landing on the oncologists table last year, would you care for my bone marry biopsy and lung screens from my latest CT?
They also found I had a retroaotic left renal vein which is why my kidneys shutting down and now displaying antiphosphorlipid syndrome from the lymphoma.

Whatever you do for a living anon, thanks for doing it. You sound like you give a fuck.

I think it's actually related to the nervous system

You mean in terms of it being understimulated and it being activated due to the smalles activities?
I hope youre right Fren... only for my Granny she lost her daughter to suicide already and i dont want her to lose another ''child'' of hers :(
Pray for German Granny please

Always some know it all demanding proof, gets proof then says I'm a liar.

You're very typical of most medical residents I encountered in my time.
My newest GP is asian and actually took my case seriously when most doctors treated me identical to yourself.

I mean that there is nerve damage in the system that controls sweating (as well as likely other places that may or may not be showing anything.... yet).

Mayo literally just moved here 2 weeks ago, I've been bounced between specialists for six years ans resident GP's.

Only finally landing on the oncologists table last year, would you care for my bone marry biopsy and lung screens from my latest CT?

They also found I had a retroaotic left renal vein which is why my kidneys shutting down and now displaying antiphosphorlipid syndrome from the lymphoma.

Yes, dude. Give me a much information as possible. Also if you have the mutation type of the cancer that'd be even better.

but your vascular system is just weak

Do you think i can strengthen it with training or is it fucked?`

I'd highly recommend not taking the next one they roll out for the next thing.

I wanted to insult you but you know what - i wont take it next time thanks

That's best case scenario with doctors who aren't overburdened and do their jobs correctly. I agree with your assessment but if you don't advocate for yourself and treat the doctors like they are your employees you get shuffled around and can miss crucial shit or mistakenly put you in a waiting list. We regularly had to call the oncologists to make sure they were submitting shit to insurance. My wife had to push her oncologist to do a follow up PET because they didn't want to do one after a year out because "studies said" she should be fine. Well she was right because it replapsed and she needed a stem cell transplant. Not saying you're wrong but if you don't have a medical background and just think the medical system will take care of you you can die waiting simply because the receptionists/office admin forgot to submit your paperwork or send a referral.

Nestlés former CEO is head of WEF now indians should focus more on that than flex to the nobody. God morning.

You said earlier that humans beings are completely undeserving of any grace and that is true. But God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For it is by grace you have been saved through faith and this is not from yourselves. it is the gift of God not by works so that no one can boast. We do not deserve Grace at all but God freely Gives us It out of His abounding love. This is How much He loves us He Suffered An Excruciatingly painful death that lasted More then 6 hours of torture Humilation Mockery And extreme Pain He Did this for us for every one of us. Even if you were the only person on earth He would still Suffer that for you Even in our Undeserving Sinful state God still Suffered and Died for us. God sees past our Horrible nature He sees the soul He breathed Life into please Give Him your heart God loves you more then you can Even understand

I mean that there is nerve damage in the system that controls sweating

Meaning im le bum fucked?
And i didnt even take my Prep (KEK)

Is this real?s4mhsn

The biopsy of the lymph node (the god awfully painful one) showed a proliferation of cd44 and cd5 B cells if I recall.
The bone marrow wasn't highly conclusive other than the fact I had abnormal plasma proteins and other abnormalities, the hematolgist threw his hands up and forced me to rhemtology which diagnosed antiphosphorlipid which then made the rhemtologist kick me back to hematology.

Hey Anon what was your favorite Videogame growing up?
Just answer

You should have had genetic testing done already to rule out any genetic diseases or mutations. What were results?
It sounds like you have more than one thing going on, and autoimmune is a possibility.
What were the bone marrow biopsy results?

I wanted to insult you but you know what - i wont take it next time thanks

nah I probably deserve it. That was stupid of me to say. As far as if your vascular system can be strengthened, I don't know. I'm just a random anon that tried to absorb everything all the cancelled doctors were saying at the time. From what I understand, you're probably fine so long as you don't do what you wouldn't do again.

Cobra triangle

can you sign up for this chimeramaxxin shit?

I'm sorry bud, sounds like u have multiple myeloma.

you're probably fine so long as you don't do what you wouldn't do again.

Meaning fucking your Mom, Son?
Just kidding (kek) thank you Anon and i mean it - we are all in this together against the Klaus Schwabs of this World
God bless Fren

For me it has improved with looking after my health better. Vitamin D is vital so if you aren't getting it from being indoors all the time I highly recommend you get a supplement. You might also have more luck with a doctor than I did with our shitty NHS.

Good question, that was suppose to be done and the woman who collected my sample dropped it on the fucking ground and the results came back with absolutely nothing, I forgot that test it was suppose to be re-ran.
It's been a fucking nightmare of appointments while also having episodes of dementia so it's a bit much to keep track of.
This is feburary of this year, again on high dose prednisone, doctors said "oh look the lymph nodes shrunk you're fine!'
And forgot I was on prednisone so had to reschedule more biopsies and pet-cts.
though yes I've given up.
I gave up before the car wreck but it just sealed my decision to give up.

Vitamin D is vital

Taking it for a few Weeks now

You might also have more luck with a doctor than I did with our shitty NHS.

I wait months for a appointment thanks to unlimited immigration and when i have it i usually get treated like shit because i feel like shit and look the part
Oh well

Yeah they thought that but my hips showed no lesions but my kappa light chains are through the roof and alpha 2 protein has been elevated for years.
I'm still pretty sure it's lymphoma because of the lymph node they biopsied hurts so fucking badly it radiates pain outward until I get such a severe migraine behind my right eye that I'll start literally seeing angels.
Lympoma/myeloma either way I know it's cancer, I was done raw.

Sunlight is essential, its not possible to replace it, you need to be activated. Thats why sunglasses is garbage too

did you receive any chemo-specifically bleomycin? That gave my wife lung toxicity which presents similarly to what you're talking about there. They had to pump her up on steroids too so that it wouldn't develop into pulmonary fibrosis. She had ground glass infiltrates on her scans too.

Then it's amyloidosis

Taking it for a few Weeks now

OK. Be aware that it is possible to overdose on it so be careful with how much you take. Other vitamins like C and K also help as well as minerals like magnesium and selenium (you can get a multivitamin with all this stuff in one tablet) as well as fish oil.

The actual sun would be the best option, true.

amyloidosis

oh shit, did anon just nail it down?

I figured the same thing, my oncologist assured me "No way"
But then again this same oncologist didn't notice my fucking lungs and kidney on the report I had to point both out to him.
Ugh just speaking now right lower node...
It feels like they all spasm out of sync except with severe fucking pain.
I know this car wreck likely kicked up all the dust so to speak I feel like absolute death.

Read about the Primal Diet by Aajonus Vonderplanitz if you're interested, maybe you can get better. This is not some random bullshit diet, I started eating that way because I also have health problems (not as OP though). Good luck to you, stay strong

Damn that sucks bro. I broke my toe last year.

are u gonna try to take a jew or nigger with u anon

The light chains are being made in your bone marrow or your liver. What does imaging say? You're too young for wild type.
You should have had a chest ct and a MRI of the pelvis, including both femurs. What were results?

Vitamin K with magn and calcium are in the Vita D Pill and Vitamin C i take on the side so i am pretty much on it
As for overdosing on D (faggot who thinks about dicks when reading the D) - i take 2000 i.e. or whatever so i am good i think

The protein in my urine could be from the left renal vein being crushed, they want to do surgery on that of course but not the thing I'm 99% sure is killing my ass, plus my lungs are so fucked up I keep having episodes where my carbon dioxide levels rise really high, and no it's not where I live I tested that first.

I turn blonde now

Not your blog faggot. Herbs

You motherfucker... take my KEK

FUCK YOU NIGGER JANNIES

WGFKY

jannies are evil

Unironically seen the ophanim described in Ezekiel twice during near death episodes.

Would you retell this? I've had some experiences that too that prove to me that there is something more than this. I will pray for you

Thread was moving too quickly I think I had a hard time responding.
But ffs yeah I had a whole thing typed out, chest CT in Feb with iodine above, no MRIs done of pelvis I'll probably bring that up assuming I don't fucking die soon.
Was on my way to do ultrasounds of my right legs for blood clots.
another ct during the wreck showed more lung changes again.

Sounds good. Hope you get better. (it may take literally years).

You dont need to read the Bible just be good people =)

I think you probably have more time than you think. Make them work for you. Go to the ER and tell them you're having chest pains and make them admit you.

I'd get super into detail but to be frank since this wreck I've been pretty bitter spiritually.
But yes I saw a shifting face being twice that eventually manifested into an ever present green eye surrounded by a silent lightning.

I'm usually more descriptive but I feel like dogshit tonight.
Both came after what felt like my brain splitting.

There's 0% chance they would have done a bone marrow biopsy without first doing a MRI of both femurs. Again, something isn't adding up in your story. You're going to have to be truthful if you want help.

I might, might not part of it is my will to live is pretty much exhausted, I was also concussed severly from the wreck and I just got over a major TBI from 2021 from a car wreck which fucked me up for years.
This just re-did all that damage and I've been struggling mentally horribly these last few days.

youtube.com/watch?v=snV0pXF1i8U

You pussy. You give up that easily? You know the sorrow and misery I've seen on people with much worse?

Been nothing but truthful and to be honest man you aren't helping, you're just raising my blood pressure then I prove to you I'm not lying, it's insanely typical of a lot of arrogant residents I've dealt with who said similar shit

Oh it must be this way

oh nope it must be this way

You know for two years I had doctors calling me crazy because I kept saying my left side hurts, turns out my kidney was born abnormally and I wasn't fucking lying at all.
I won't provide you further details as you haven't provided me a single thing I haven't already attempted to discover.
but to satisfy your doubting mind.

On death's door

About to die

Suddenly get a flash of inspiration

Use your last energy to pick up your cellphone and dial a random number

ring ring.....

"Hello, who is this?"

"HELLO SAAR I WAARK AT AUTO INSURANCE AND WE HAVE FOUND YOUR INSURANCE IS OVERDUE, YOU WILL BE CHA-ACK!"

Okay have they ruled out every type of vasculitis?

I doubt you've ever even seen someone die, I can easily prove I'm not lying, you've said nothing a simple episode of house doesn't discuss.
I knew you were only in the thread in an attempt to provoke and mock the sick I've dealt with many many of your types in my journey.

I'm done with this thread.
You've contributed nothing, I was at least enjoying the banter with some other anons, you've provided me nothing but doubt on your ability as any kind of medical professional, take this as a lesson that your assumptions have been mostly incorrect so far, that's gonna kill someone.

This isn't gonna turn into the work me Olympics.

Now, you sound like you have autoimmune vasculitis or less likely amyloidosis. Have they ruled both out?

vasculitis

I told you 4x I've been diagnosed with antiphosphorlipid syndome....

Read, stop fucking talking like everyone does, and read, if you're a medical student you need to stop now and learn to slow it down.
One thing I'm good at is ripping into doctors so don't even start.

Post doc cancer researcher published on the cover of nature and science, currently work for the NIH

I am out for now and 1 last thing Fren :
Wherever you go - wait for me there and i tell you how Clown World played out.
We gonna smoke, drink and laugh about this fucked up Place called Earth :)
God bless Brother wherever you are and whoever you are
Peace

Fine I believe you still doesn't mean you aren't a dick then again most doctors are about as spastic as I am.
Here's the deal most of my doctors are not speaking to each other, this is the biggest issue I face, I can get them to talk for a minute but then they stop or hit a road block, or my GP's some resident fuck face who doesn't know his hand from his ass.
My best bet assuming I even got time, which I doubt, is to relocate my GP to NKC hospital where the Mayo clinic is, bring in all my reports and biopsies and get a proper team on this, not this scattered bullshit I'm dealing with currently.

Would vasculitus show in CT?
Because well it feels like the veins in my fucking neck are blocked up, but I assume that's the APS.

For someone with no diagnosis, ripping into doctors should be the last thing you do.

Some of my work
researchgate.net/publication/319834698_ZATT_ZNF451-mediated_resolution_of_topoisomerase_2_DNA-protein_cross-links

Since you're posting here I'm gonna ask you a chuddy quesiton. I work in med device as after not making into med school post grad school. I'm regularly in research institutes and it seems like the quality of people they are hiring are questionable at best. Lots of african and indian females. I work in neuromodulation and the people collecting the data are not very competent. Makes me skeptical of the whole process. Is this inkling reasonable? It really seems like there's a handful of very smart people holding the ship together but the rest of the organization is just full of people treading water.

They didn't do a tumor board meeting?

Also most stomach/colon issues have been ruled out, chronic gasritis and a polyp only two things found, but I did have a severe bleeding episode which is why they biopsied my stomach/colon.
Just to rule that out.

I've had a near megacolon twice from my body just stopping any bowel movements for long periods, steroids improved this issue it seems.

Yeah well getting dementia and pissing protein for months on end gets tiring, especially when one resident told me I was just bipolar.

Also both my legs about from the calf down are nearly completely cut off from feeling, terrible neuropathy, my neurologist has been my best doctor and unironically who sounded the myeloma alarms.
Unfortunately just lost him he moved to arizona.

I have no idea. That's out of my field. Durable medical goods have huge margins, just work for Stryker of another implant company and you'll be good.

I don't know what that even is, they biopsied the largest lymph node in my neck, and then came to the conclusion the only way to truly know is to remove that lymph node, which again no doctor in town will do because of it's location

supposedly

Both oncologists I saw convinced me not to remove it.

Yea I already work for one of the big ones. I was just wondering if you felt the quality of your younger colleagues was deteriorating?.

They typically meet with your care team for complex cases to discuss what next steps should be. Sort of an interdisciplinary approach. I've seen docs I work with do it. Usually a web call where they work together to discuss diagnosis, treatment plan, etc.

Sounds like you have a diagnosis. They just don't know what caused it. this conversation is going to do nothing other than unnecessary stress you. You need to make sure you do not hurt yourself if you're on lovenox or heparin. Stay safe and treat yourself like bubble boy or the glass man and don't get hurt or you'll bleed out, but you know82tyg this already.

Well you seem clearly not retarded, my issue is well the doctors I've been seeing (This isn't the Mayo guys) have been seemingly shit, Sarah Cannon Center Institute, my neurologist is getting switched to the Mayo clinic side due to the severity of my case, and my rhemetologist was already there so he's on their team too, my resident great guy I think he will be a big name someday is graduating so I'll lose him but I can switch my GP to the same hospital as my neuro and autoimmune.
That's all assuming I even get there, I'm fucked life wise and have been for awhile, it's impossible to work and suffer from whatever it is exactly that's killing me, I used to be able to contain it until it started manifesting in episodes of severe blood pressure spikes, pain, shortness of breath and literally demented thoughts, driving aimlessly for hours to places I don't know while in such severe pain it feels like my head is rotting off from the throat to my eyeballs.

To describe it a bit, and while doing all this alone and being the only advocate for my health, except my neuro he really did go above his duties.

My current work is merit based, everyone is a superstar. I can't speak to the younger generation.

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My hospitals.... are ran usually by DEI hires, half the time I'd get my paperwork to my doctor it would be lost, or once I went in for a scope to my stomach and they told me I had a stroke 11 years prior and a heart attack the year before.
Was reading the chart for a 67 year old man...

This has hardly been the typical journey, though it likely isn't going to end well I was put off for too long, my lungs went to shit very quickly which is why I'm worried it metastasized there, they were clear a year ago.

I've been checked for lupus, infectious disease, ENT's sarcoidosis, damn near everything to rule out cancer.

Did you get any chemo?

If you are a doctor you should swear the oath. It means something.

You're gonna end up hurting yourself and not feel it if on painkillers, you'll wake up the next morning with horrible bruising and bleeding. They're avoiding this by not giving you too many pk's.
If the neuro hasn't moved you from neurontin to Lyrica, that's a option for neuropathy.
You can be on well over 1,200 mg neurontin safely.

I can't say my care team even ever spoke to eachother together once, It seems constantly I have to remind them to call each other, infectious disease took it pretty seriously but couldn't find something to take the cancer off the radar.

I hate listening about people not getting help, it annoys me.

Your care is disjointed. This will happen if you spearhead the treatment but don't get them to all talk to one another.
You'll need to arrange for a gatekeeper to manage all the other doctors

God no I'm just some sick poorfaggot with a myriad of health issues, I've only learned a lot being my own advocate.
No I was hoping to get to that point but the oncologists never made a proper diagnosis so it's been "rule everything out first"
which was done
I mean it was good because they caught the kidney issue but I don't think I was having blood clots prior, though who can tell I didn't get the APS diagnosis until March

how did they land on the mantle cell thing? They couldn't find specific cellular markers from the biopsy? Punch biopsies are often trash because of crush artifact. You need to find a surgeon who will take out an entire lymph node.

Incredibly disjointed why I plan on going to Meritas and getting all my doctors under one banner, I did that ONCE thinking it would work with research but they are shit and scattered, wish I didn't wreck my car the shit is fucking murdering my neck, partially why I'm in a bad mood my apologies didn't mean to be so snarky, I've had a lot of people feed me a lot of bullshit, think you might be the only real doctor I've seen post here, and not a med student posing as one.

Get your rheumatologist or oncologist if you have one to order a genetic test for hereditary mutations pertaining to anti phospholipid syndrome. That's your best bet. You don't know what you don't know.

Yeah I scheduled a visit with my hematolgist because he wanted me to return if one of my legs swelled up, which it did, on top of not being able to find a autoimmune source for the lymph nodes, I'm just at the place where I say cut it out, problem is it's both sides, though the right side hurts much worse, and many many lymph nodes in my throat are swollen, actually the CT's are a bit off because I wasn't on prednisone during my initial finding where my entire neck was lit up in 2019, then after years of no real answers I'd get on prednisone and feel better for a bit, then off and feel like death, then on minor prednisone, then off etc.

Until they biopsied my neck and the pain did NOT go away, (I believe the mantle zone was hard to distinguish in the biopsy of the neck iirc)
a physicians assistant put me on high dose prednisone for the first time which finally made the pain go away, but right after I had the bone marrow biopsy and the pet-ct which threw everything off, so this was suppose to be the wash out and re-test phase but I had a terrible COPD attack about 3 weeks ago and was put on high dose prednisone again.
I fucking hate it, then well the wreck, while I was already on prednisone likely shifted any worsening skeltal problems.
Oh I do have terrible degenerating bones (seen minorly before prednisone as well don't think that contributed)
No high calicum levels but it's always borderline high, and just enough abnormal labs to shake a stick at, you guys would probably have a field day with my case.

I will, I'm suppose to see my rhem on the 30th I think medicaid will pay for a ride, just hate getting into vehicles with strangers, I don't trust others driving.
I had one genetic test done for amyloidosis that's the one the nurse dropped, but I don't think it was a genetic panel, I did have a FISH genetic panel done during the biopsy.
which I believe concluded it wasn't myeloma, though I thought it might have been LCMM.
I kinda forgot about a lot of this just refreshing my mind, I've been so fucking distracted with other people's lives and not focusing on my own.

Maybe hit up a lawyer if the car accident wasn't your fault. . . And if it was and you had a good insurance policy with collision you can sue your own insurance..idk how it works in it state. You might get a lil windfall from the accident..
It's late here and I'm in bed now. I hope you the best. I'll keep checking this thread.

The genetic test would be from a cheek swab

It was a piece of shit car I only had liability, and I hit a guy on a motorcycle who looked like a fat frank zappa, the cops didn't seem to assured on him having insurance, though he's lucky to be alive I swerved last second enough not to center mass t-bone him and he flew over my car instead of under it, but he smashed my windshield with his head.
I expect I'll have to go after my insurance for the shitty uninsured motorist coverage which isn't much.
But maybe something, enough to maybe get a car in a year lol.

here's your participation award for slamming into an uninsured wall.

Thanks for letting me rant, have a good nights sleep, it did remind me to do some things, assuming I decide to get back on this fucking horse.

A biopsy would rule out amyloidosis. A genetic test would only rule out hereditary amylidosis, in that case other people in your family would be affected.
The light chain ratios can usually differentiate between multiple myeloma and amyloidosis. I'm unsure of antiphospholipid sydrome

Yeah I believe it was for the heart version of amyloidosis, neuro thought with the kappa light chains and my heart arrthimas and constant high blood pressure it might be PTTR amyloidosis? If i recall correctly.
Something to that affect, but the nurse butterfingered the genetic swab and dropped it on the floor and still sent it off...
felt like that wasn't adequate.

You need to get on ssdi immediately.
Lawyers are regulated in this field, and are only allowed to take contingency on a successful appeal if you've done this already.

Thing is my lymph node in my right groin above my pelvis gets inflammed alot, at one point it was enlarged enough to be visible, but then goes down, seemingly hasn't been flared up on the latest ct's but I feel like it does at random times usually once off prednisone long enough.
My theory is if it's lymphoma indeed, would removing the groin lymph node be the same as removing the neck lymph node?
Reason I ask is well I'd much rather remove it from my hip than my fucking neck.

Sounds like lymphedema. Maybe it's a complication of your condition. I would have to look it up. I do know that wraps and massages are the usual treatment besides draining.

Again. Please get a case worker asap.

Yeah fighting appeals council right now on 3 years worth of SSA, I grew up working for my father so my work record was shot, don't have enough credits for SSDI but I should qualify for SSA.
But with the lack of diagnosis from doctors they denied me, I appealed showing COPD, Migraines, degenerating bones, multiple biopsies and about 200 doctors visits should be enough to prove I'm not doing this for the hell of it, but if they deny me again I should be able to lawyer up and go back and reclaim the prior years.

This is the (Plan A) which has so far been a total failure.

They don't like it when you have a plethora of conditions and apply with all of them. Pick the worst two conditions you have and go from there

Yeah, I mean if I can somehow pull off a miracle and erect my shambling life I had plans on getting this shit more organized, doing this without a partner fucking sucks, if I was married or some shit at least there would be someone there to help more, I'm sort of antisocial so I rejected a lot of care like caretakers.

Before the lungs really showed progressive degeneration and my bones I even had hopes of maybe becoming a physicians assistant someday but that's well a likely unreachable dream.
I'd still like to slay whatever is actually consuming my life, it's not the nutcracker syndrome, it's likely not the blood clotting, it's my neck and it's neverending pain along with the progression into migraines, I can deal with body pain, I can't deal with the head trauma.
But yeah, whoever is reading this trainwreck still, don't smoke.
Or be born with weird genetic abnormalties.

My theory is if it's lymphoma indeed, would removing the groin lymph node be the same as removing the neck lymph node?

Reason I ask is well I'd much rather remove it from my hip than my fucking neck.

I have no idea. The doctors will know what to do.
As you already know, those steroids help in the short term but have significant complications. You really need to have someone who knows what they're doing if they're giving you high doses of corticosteroids or you'll be dead within a year or two.

I sort of did, it was my lymph nodes and my migraines, and well at the time my unexplained side stabbing pain, which I did not know why was happening until the latest CT scan, I had an operation lined up to move my left renal vein

my left testicle and left kidney are inflammed and got the varicocele and everything.

Personally not here for the money, I just originally wanted to get better, but it turned into unraveling a ball of twine.

Contact your Medicaid health plan and DEMAND A CASE WORKER.

Yeah if I take 20mg prednisone now instead of feeling good my kidneys just spasm and I have a psychotic episode.
I'm off them as we speak, last dose I took was yesterday, they do help with my insane bone pains but also soon as I stop it feels like my throat swells up like a toad, if I don't take them I can sort of get used to the pain.
It was more or less because I couldn't breathe I started uptaking dioxide and couldn't catch my breath, only regaining it on the steroids.
Ugh yeah it's alot, could write a fucking book just in this thread.

You need to have arrangements for money because this condition is lifelong.

You need to get on any and all assistance. If your health takes a real bad turn, you're not gonna be able to fight.

Iirc, vasculitis technically hasn't been ruled out until they do a biopsy of an affected vessel

Yeah I know, that's what I hate the most I just honestly want hospice and to sleep but I can't, well not gonna get into how bad my personal life is but to say the least it's caught up with me, I tried and did a pretty fucking good job considering I'm not working but everything good comes to an end, had I gotten approved for disability I could have gotten some rest not fighting health shit while in a constant state of panic about how will I even keep the lights on.

Why when I got into this wreck despite the insane pain and concussion I don't really see a logical way of fixing it anymore.
I'll try to get a case worker, I'm also now dealing with police and insurance shit, just a clusterfuck.
I jokingly tell people I picked hardcore mode on arrival.

Afraid it's sort of there to be frank, I speak well prior to being ill I was pretty intelligent, a dozen TBI's later and where I'm at, well to say the least without nerve medicine I can't even get out of bed at this rate.

Why when I got denied in december I sort of gave up then, and been a slow burn down till now, part of the reason that accident happened was likely because my minds too distracted, I mean he was at fault but I've been in a constantly bad mood which might have somehow contributed.

Goodnight Doctor Chuddie, hope you write a new book based off our conversation.
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Hrm actually was considering vasculitis but one of the many considerations, it actually makes some sense my ANA titer was high but no lupus found, APS found but not a strong indicator of APS, which made them think APS was a side effect of something else, and if I recall correctly my cd4 was really high

also most of my ESR is flagged high, though CRP is usually low though it was like 4.5 at it's highest nothing crazy by any means but my WBC is nearly always elevated, never crazy elevated but almost never normal.

Infectious disease ran a ton of panels and cultured my blood for a month.
Though my neuro wanted me to re-check with them.

Reason you might be onto something with vasculitis is sometimes it feels like my veins are pumping motor oil, i told this to several doctors and just disregarded.
I will try to bring that up with my GP he's usually quick to order any tests I inquire about.

Rare lymphoid aggregates are seen and highlighted by
immunohistochemical stains. Lymphocytes are mixture of T cells and B
cells. Mild nonspecific immunophenotypic abnormalities are seen in
the subset of myelomonocytic cells by flow cytometry.

Only a rare enlarged platelet is seen. No
giant platelets are identified. No significant platelet clumping is
seen. The red cells show mild anisopoikilocytosis. Minimal
polychromasia is seen.

Only abnormalities seen in BM.
Also keep in mind still under prednisone at the time.

was this from smoking??

Not sure, I grew up painting cars at a young age so it's possible I was exposed to chemicals.

Biopsy report

MICROSCOPIC DESCRIPTION
H E stained sections reveal lymph node tissue with focally preserved
follicular architecture. Follicles and mantle zones are not
well-defined and difficult to appreciate on the H E stain. The
interfollicular area shows a mixed population of small lymphocytes.
Blood vessels are unremarkable. The sinuses are patent, containing
histiocytes and plasma cells. There is no necrosis, granulomas, or
metastatic cells present.
MICROSCOPIC DESCRIPTION (Continued)

Immunohistochemical stains:
CD20 and CD79a highlight small B-cells in a diffuse proliferation
throughout the biopsy specimen, at least as numerous as T-cells.
CD5 and CD43 appear to show abnormal co-expression in B-cells.
CD3, CD5, CD43, and CD7 shows pleomorphic small T-cells in the
interfollicular areas with no loss in marker expression.
T-cells show a normal CD4:CD8 proportion of 4-5:1.
BCL6 highlights B-cells in a rare involuted germinal center that is
negative for BCL2.
CD21 and CD23 highlights a few small intact follicular dendritic cell
meshworks that lack germinal center B-cells.
CD23 also highlights scattered B-cells in the interfollicular areas.
Ki-67 highlights a rare involuted germinal center, as well as
scattered lymphocytes in the interfollicular region.
Negtative stains: cyclin-D1, CD1a, TdT, CD10.

interesting htread
i haven't been to a doctor in 5 years or so
i really should get some bloodwork done :/
good luck everyone