new idea:
I'm gonna become a semen retention schizo and reap all of the benefits from semen retention
I'll exacerbate my schizophrenia to new levels. Not the le "muh imaginary girlfriend sucked my peepee" kind but the "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH THE DEMONS ARE ATTACKING ME EVERY WAKING MOMENT OF MY ENTIRE LIFE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!" kind